Spares My Life
God revealed to me that just my being here was a miracle. He had kept His hand on me even in the depths of the depression. That was the only difference between me, and someone that chooses to take their life. I still had God’s hand on my life. No, He didn’t take away the pain, but He chose to spare my life.
I don’t know how to explain this, but I will do my best. Perhaps unless you are as messed up as I was, you will not begin to understand what I am going to say. satan had me so bad off that even after God spared my life, it would take me sometime to put all the pieces together. For me, it was as if all the pieces of the puzzle were there in plain sight, but somehow I couldn’t really see them. I realize how odd it sounds, but God above and He alone knew the state I was in. It truly was a nasty, dark, and evil place toward the end; it felt like hell without the heat. When, I say toward the end, I am referring to what I thought was going to be my final days.
It was not until in prayer one day after getting the Holy Ghost that I told God, “between me and you God, I know you spared my life”, and He immediately came back with “Yes”. I am doing now what I did then, I started balling. The tears are of immense joy for I was experiencing what most have known their whole life.
He really did love me that much that He chose to keep me. He cared about me and I finally had value for the first time in my life. He loves me. God REALLY loves me. There are so many beauties to God, but if God just treated me special and did not love someone else, then I wouldn’t want it. That is why I am so thankful that God is not like man, He loves and cares for all of us. I cannot stop singing His praises; no, I am not blessed with a beautiful voice. But I have a voice and do sing proudly to God as it is my best. And as for rhythm, I don’t posses that ability either, but I don’t care, I am doing it for God and not for man. Man is the one that has a problem that I am off beat, not God. So I block out man and worship God to the fullest. I have found that is the only way to give all that God deserves. He is so deserving. Piece by piece GOD has taken this broken vessel and put it back together.
With everything that have breath praise the Lord. And that is me!
“Let every thing that hath breath praise the LORD. Praise ye the LORD.” Psalms 150:6
There will not be any rocks crying out in my place!
“And he answered and said unto them, I tell you that, if these should hold their peace, the stones would immediately cry out.” Luke 19:40
“For ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands.” Isaiah 55:12
Over come depression & uncertainty
“Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.” Psalms 42:5
“For thou art the God of my strength: why dost thou cast me off? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?” Psalms 43:2
“Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.” I Peter 5:6-7
“We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;” II Corinthians 4:8-9
“For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish, yet the inward man is renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory; While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.” II Corinthians 4:16-18
To define a miracle, in my own words it would be; Spontaneous Divine Intervention with flawlessly perfect timing. In one word, GOD!
“Coincidence is God's way of remaining anonymous.”
--Albert Einstein