My Sweet Diana

I was of course understandably overjoyed having just received the Holy Ghost again.  Moreover, thrilled beyond words and wanted to share all this with Diana. I invited her to church, but she was not interested. I waited a short time and again bubbling over, I mentioned church to her asking only if my grandsons could go to church with us, and this time she had had enough.  My exuberance which I could not contain was too much for her, she wanted no part of any of it. She would not speak to me for a week. This was the first time that we actually had any real squabble in years.

Yet it is funny, and I am not laughing, my daughter doesn’t even know this …. I have kept that from her, and amazingly she had turned into me, OVERNIGHT.  It may well be the only secret I have ever kept from her.  Still it didn’t matter because she became me.  And that is not a good thing.

How was it possible? She had never known about my issues with God. Now in practically the blink of an eye she could turn into me?  This didn’t seam right!  She didn't allow me to speak of God, and would not allow my grandchildren to come to church with me. While it hurts me, I can understand because that was who I was for all those years.

Diana went to church as a child with her Grandparents, my parents, until she was older and decided she no longer wish to do so. I never made her go; I left it to her choosing. I thought I was doing the right thing, I never wanted her to be me and yet it happened anyway despite my efforts.

God then gave me laryngitis that lasted over 2½ months.  He also explained that since my enthusiasm was too much for her, I was only pushing her further away. I could only communicate by a white board or by email. I learned my lesson and from that point on was very cautious when speaking to others about God.  I had no desire to push them further away.

I was devastated. And, at the same time, I understood exactly where she was coming from, as that had been me for so long. I knew He was doing this to help both of us, but once again, the tears flowed. There was nothing I could do now, except give it to God.  That is exactly what I have done.

“Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice. Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand. Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Rejoice in the Lord always: and again I say, Rejoice. Let your moderation be known unto all men. The Lord is at hand. Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”  Philippians 4:4-7

There is an update to this chapter that will come later. When you read about Lynn going HOME and what GOD did to answer her prayers about Diana, Kevin, Kyle, Dylan, and Kaydence regarding church and GOD.